I may be slightly manic right now. I feel like mania is my only explanation for feeling like there is a light, or warmth, or just plain happiness radiating from my chest. Pure mania.
Or maybe it's that the sun is shining in that Spring brightness way and I got a glimpse of leaf buds fighting their way from their branches yesterday.
Perhaps it's that the Husband and I had a conversation about loving our dog crazily and unconditionally and that was freeing considering I usually think I'm just spoiling him into some unrealistic form of life.
Most likely it's attributable to the brain bending conversations I have had with a couple dear friends about changing my state of mind, trying to follow some of the criteria in this 21 Days of Happiness log, and just generally letting things be. Let it be, let it be, let it be.
I guess I don't really care about the reason. I'm just overjoyed that the school assignments aren't weighing me down, that sorting through my closet for spring gets me a little too excited, and that life is swinging to and fro, and I get to live it.
I volunteer and observe in five classrooms at four schools throughout the week. I think that adds up to hanging around with over 120 kiddos. And in my classroom experiences now and previously, there are always those few students that tug at my heartstrings in subtle ways. Don't get me wrong, they all do, but there are a few that I seem to understand a little bit better than others. I love the differences each bring to assignments, the way one science experiment can be traditional for one student, and a lesson in the lotion-water plants create on Mars for another. I can't make this stuff up. And I love that.
Maybe what I'm trying to get at is I, for this brief moment, am realizing that I don't have to go searching for happiness, I can find it right here. It's a philosophical and constant practice, yes, but it's possible.
To the hunt,